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| Well its coming to an end folks. The big ride is over and it has
not yet set in that this is the end. We are all happy that we get
to be done with school and that we will soon be making money and
starting families, but I don't think that we realize that we won't be
seeing each other any more. I know that it hit me tonight that,
in less than a week, I am not going to be in such close proximity to my
friends. We are now going to have to make plans to see each other
rather than us being 10 feet away from each other. It's good to
know that we are going to stay close and we will always be close, but
its not going to be the same. Here's my one of my favorite
Beatles' songs to mark the occasion.
(Lennon/McCartney)
There are places I remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I've loved them all
But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
In my life I love you more
I love you guys
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| For those of you excited that I am posting... the warning that I offer
about this post is that its not happy... it's actually kinda sad... but
it was necessary after tonight and now that its out of me im happy
again :) .... here goes
I guess that I should have seen it coming... Nothing good ever
comes of playing with fire. Mabe its God trying to finally put
the nail in the coffin, whatever it is it still hurts. For those
of you who don't know, I have only loved one girl in my life. She
and I dated for a year back during sophomore year when I was
going to school back home. She put me through hell on almost a
daily basis. All of my friends saw it, but I did not. I
fell in love with her in the face of constant scrutiny from friends and
family. Just as they predicted, she tore me apart emotionally and
I guess I'm finally realizing how much she actually hurt me. Or
maybe I'm realizing how much she actually meant to me. Either
way, I know that losing her this time around as a friend, while not
hurting nearly as much, still burns.
My friend Jonathan, a very wise man indeed, once told me that humans
love what they put their best efforts into. Some love the cars
that they spend years restoring, some love the songs that take them
forever to figure out, I loved the girl that I worked so hard to
keep. Although, in the grand scheme of things, we were boyfriend
and girlfriend, we were never officially anything more than friends
with benefits. Now that was not a title that either of us wanted,
but it was, in reality, exactly what we were. I tried so hard to
get her to acknowledge me as a boyfriend and that effort is what led me
to falling in love with her. Now maybe its not the same love as
those who get married and are truly meant for one another, but it was
love in the fact that it was a feeling for somebody that I still have
trouble shaking.
I hadn't seen her for 3 years and had sporadically talked to her but
somehow we became "friends" again. This may be the best thing
that has ever happened between the two of us. The reason I say
this is because, after a few short weeks, now we are no longer
friends. She does not want to be friends with me just like she
didn't want to be lovers with me. I have no idea why, but I do
know that this is the sinking, depressing, feeling of closure that I
never got from her when we broke up. We broke up the day that I
moved to peoria for school. She dumped me over the phone, and to
her credit, it was the only way that she could have. If she
hadn't dumped me, I probably would not have the same amazing
relationship with the guys that I met that first semester here.
I know that this is a crappy way to post again after all the time i
have spent absent from my followers. However, Tim Finn is not
sunshine and fruit roll ups 100% of the time, and I just figured that a
dose of the not-good stuff could not hurt for once. Now, do not
dispair. This is not a sign of things to come. I also want
to make clear that this is not my forum for bashing my
ex-girlfriend. I just needed a place to let the emotions
out. I just have one more thing to say about the situation...
Alissa, if you are reading this (and I wouldn't be suprised if you
never did)... Despite your best efforts, you made a difference in me...
just like I told Alok you would the first night that I met you...
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| yet another story about my life..... this involves my ex-girlfriend by the way....
Icemann6: did i ever tell you about when i put her number into my phone?
Angie XCA dbc: noooo
Icemann6: well she emailed me out of the blue awhile ago
Icemann6: and left her phone number for me to call her if i needed to
Icemann6: so i just wanted to say hi and see how things were going
Icemann6: but eventually, for some reason, i put that number into my phone
Icemann6: but....
Icemann6: heres the funny part....
Icemann6: my phone automatically finishes the name for you when you put a name in
Icemann6: sometimes its not the name you want, but you get what i mean
Icemann6: so anyways... for whatever reason it put a question mark at the end of her name
Icemann6: its like my phone was trying to tell me something
Icemann6: 
Angie XCA dbc: lol it knows u!
Icemann6: alissa?
Icemann6: thats how her name is in my phone
Angie XCA dbc: lol
its kinda like the answering machine on swingers isnt it? wierd
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| ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD............ im back.
its been awhile but yes... i have returned to type away and enrich
lives in the process. this summer has been eventful and
prosperous what with the good job and the easy classes. im
going to get back into the swing of things with an excerpt from the
book im currently reading.... hope you like it!
It is an important and popular fact that things are not always what
they seem. For instance, on the planet Earth, man had always
assumed that he was more intelligent than dolphins because he had
achieved so much- the wheel, New York, wars and so on- while all the
dolphins had ever done was muck about in the water having a good
time. But conversely, the dolphins had always believed that they
were far more intelligent than man- for precisely the same reasons.
Curiously enough, the dolphins had long known of the impending
destruction of the planet Earth and had made many attempts to alert
mankind to the danger; but most of their communications were
misinterpreted as amusing attempts to punch soccer balls or whistle for
treats, so they eventually gave up and left the Earth by their own
means shortly before the aliens arrived.
The last ever dophin message was misinterpreted as a suprisingly
sophisitcated attempt to do a double-backward somersault through a hoop
while whistling the "Star-Spangled-Banner," but in fact the message was
this: "So long and thanks for all the fish".
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| im sitting here trying to write an entry and im having trouble
collecting my thoughts... i dont know if its cause of school, or
whatever... but i do know that im definitly at a loss for words....
well, the car show was awesome... although i have determined
something... i really dont care for about 2/3 of the show... minivans
and makes like kia and hyundai just do it for me... but i did get to
see what i wanted to see... and what i saw was awesome... and i had a
great time with the father unit, he and i have done some serious
bonding these past few years of which im very happy....
i really nope that we can get a deal worked out with the burger
barge... it would be so sweet to have them pay for the sponsorship fee
and get us t-shirts in the process.... im also way excited about
getting the chance to play for an entire summer.... especially with me
having gone to the weightroom for the past month, i should be hitting
with a little bit more pop... :)
well i have created 3 groups on my facebook account... hopefully i can
get some publicity here for these groups... i dont need money or
anything, but i would like to raise awareness for one of my groups in
general... Gene Winter affects all of us folks, the more we know the
more we can do about it!
lastly, my fiancee kim needs to get her act together or the wedding is
off! and on this im not kidding... she says that she isnt my
cheap labor??? what is that??? i think 5 bucks for a shoulder massage
is perfectly fine... and if its not then im welcome to suggestions on
what is reasonable... besides... she wants to watch movies with pat
more than she wants to help her future-spouse out anyways... so as far
as im concerned we are enolled!
chances are kim wont even read this... and all of this will go to
waste... but oh well, its fun... (hopefully her real boyfriend doesnt
read this either!.... hehe) anyways... im off to bed folks... i
know that this sucks for an entry... but its the best that ive
got! for a guy that doesnt have any drama in his life currently
(i.e. i have no girlfriend) its hard to write about interesting
things...
later
p.s. check out 904frink.com
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